“Despair” lived up to his name, leaving me crying for 20 minutes. I’m still not over the emotional turmoil Supernatural put us through.
The end is near, so we knew, or at least we knew there was a possibility of deaths. We’ve been worried about how Sam (Jared Padalecki) and Dean’s (Jensen Ackles) story would end. And that could still end tragically, too. But we had a lot of deaths this episode and one major one.
There’s so much going on in the world right now. The last thing I needed was Castiel (Misha Collins) sacrificing himself for Dean. But if this is the way his story ends, it was a beautiful one.
Dean has been a little broken since his mother died, and then finding out Chuck has been running the show, he pretty much lost it. He needed to hear what a big heart he has. Dean does do everything he does out of love. He’s angry for way too long because he cares so much. Cas finished his speech with an “I love you.”
All this time, Destiel fans wanted them to be together. This was never going to happen because of Dean, but I never really stopped to think that maybe Cas was truly in love with Dean. It can happen. I have certainly crushed on gay guys before.
We can only assume that Cas does love Dean because he said that he could never have what he truly wanted but saying it would be true happiness.
I lost it during this scene. As soon as he started his monologue, I knew where this was going. Cas was going to sacrifice himself for his best friend. It was beautiful and heartbreaking all at the same time.
How will Dean handle this? He wouldn’t even answer Sam’s calls when Sam will want to know that he was okay. He’s more than ready to sacrifice himself but hates when someone does it for him. Not to mention, his best friend just told him he loved him. Can we even hope there is a way to save Cas?
Cas wasn’t the only death. Everyone except Sam, Jack (Alexander Calvert), and Dean is dead. When Charlie’s girlfriend disappeared, it came clear that people from other worlds were dying.
I will take one moment to be happy for Felicia Day being back. Okay, there’s the moment.
And poor Sam, Eileen (Shoshannah Stern), was taken as they were on their way to her. She vanished in the midst of texting him back. All that was left was her bag, keys, and phone, with Sam as the screen saver. This episode was aptly named “Despair.”
Sam and Jack tried their best to get everyone together to save them. Donna (Briana Buckmaster) came and helped too. Unfortunately, there was nothing they could do. Even Donna was taken. Then it appeared that everyone in the world has vanished. Some serious Infinity War vibes going on here. Can we get them back, with two episodes left?
I wasn’t ready for this episode. For Cas to die, for the entire population to pretty much vanish. We are literally going into Sam, Dean, and Jack against Chuck with Amara in him. We should get ready for the biggest showdown ever for Supernatural. Are you ready? I know I’m not.
How are you holding up after “Despair” with two episodes left? Tweet me @MandyTTCarr or comment below.
